With six weeks left to finish my masters, an endeavour that brought me across the world and put me into a whole heck of a lot of debt, I have come to a startling conclusion: I don't really care all that much about learning. I know, earth shattering. I'm not saying I don't like learning. I do. I'm also not saying there aren't positives to learning. There are. All I am saying is that while I take off entire weekends from work to study (aka 'learn'), why do I find myself doing everything but? Case in point, despite the fact that I actually have put a whole lot of time into one of the two papers I have due on Wednesday, what else have I done this weekend? I went to The Body Shop. and Myer. Walked through Hyde Park. Called Canada about 28 times. 3 episodes of Angel. 2 episodes of Veronica Mars. Multiple hours of YouTube time. 3 different restuarants were visited. Drank wine (whilst studying). Made guacamole. Organized pictures. You get the drift.
And, as the deadline is looming even closer, what have I found myself doing today? I just memorized The Fray video, which features scenes of Greys Anatomy season 3 -- how many points will that get me on a paper about The WTO and a global public sphere? How about my indepth knowledge of the behind the scenes footage from episode one of Survivor: Cook Island? Cause seriously, I could write a full on thesis about Survivor.
Anyway, so as to not string out this non-sensical rant too much longer, all I have to say is this: I love TV. It makes me happy. and, while learning does, on some levels, make me happy (I really am the life of those conversations that don't really happen at those really important cocktail parties I don't attend), TV just makes me happier. The people on TV? They're my friends. I learn from them. While Meredith Grey, Veronica Mars and Jeff Probst aren't such good friends as to get me, umm say, a job, I know they'll always be there for me. Their sagas affect me greatly... even moreso than, gee let me think, the WTO and the global public sphere.
And, until I can really devote myself to my friends (ie, when survivor is finished downloading and all my other shows finally premiere), I'll return to my lesser friend, school, and apply myself aptly to scholarly pursuits. Or, at least I'll half ass it for the next six weeks, realize that nobody besides people in and around universities care about a global public sphere, find a job (probably as a baker, or some shit like that), return home each night, fill a glass with some oh-so delicious boxed red wine and call on my good friends.
That is all. I will now have to find something else to do to occupy my brain and help me forget that scholarly pursuits require an investment of time and energy.